Luminous Dark

Leaning into pain, holding on to God, breaking through to light

Alain Emerson


Pages: 224
ISBN: 978-1-910012-45-1
Publication Date: 31/10/2017

God doesn’t give us answers. In the silence he gives us himself - bigger than our pain, beyond our explanations, closer than our breath.
Alain Emerson

When young pastor and 24-7 Prayer leader Alain Emerson lost his twenty-three-year-old wife to cancer, his once firm faith seemed to crumble. In this profound exploration of loss, Alain retraces his journey through the stages of grief, choosing to lean into the pain and to face God with his disappointment. He emerges with a stronger and deeper faith, and a sense of having seen God’s face – the one who ultimately restores our joy.

Format: Paperback
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When you follow God in wholehearted obedience, and suddenly your entire world falls apart; when your deepest, most urgent prayers are met with silence – can faith survive?

Alain Emerson felt like the luckiest man in the world. The talented pastor of a thriving church and national director of a prayer movement, he had found and married Lindsay, his soulmate. He could never have imagined that in a matter of months he would be nursing his twenty-three-year-old wife through the final stages of cancer, and would find himself as a young widower, distraught and alone.

In Luminous Dark Alain retraces his journey through the stages of grief, pain and shock, choosing to lean into the pain and to face God with his disappointment in the dark tunnel of despair. It is here that Alain wrestles with God and with his grief.

And it is from that he emerges with a sense of having seen God’s face – the one who knows our pain, who walks beside us, suffers and weeps with us, and who ultimately restores our joy.

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Foreword by Pete Greig
Introduction : Running in the Dark
Chapter 1 : The Loss
Chapter 2 : Survival
Chapter 3 : What Will You Do with Your Pain?
Chapter 4 : The Protest
Chapter 5 : Pathos
Chapter 6 : Silence
Chapter 7 : Paradox
Chapter 8 : Reorientation
Chapter 9 : Hope
Chapter 10 : Transformation
Epilogue : Resurrection


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About the author

Alain Emerson
Alain Emerson

Alain Emerson is Irish National Director of 24-7 Prayer and one of the lead Pastors at Emmanuel Church, a thriving young church in Lurgan, Northern Ireland. Alain has a passion to see God do a ‘new thing’ in Ireland. He is married to Rachel and they have two daughters, Annie and Erin. He is a former Irish league footballer who now enjoys watching sport rather than playing it, especially the mighty Liverpool! He enjoys hanging out with friends, reading and helping his wife run a dental practice.

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